May 20, 2007 - Faith

After many years of life and many stressful situations--that is when people should lose their hair -- not a 1 year old! Our poor little girl looks a bit like an older guy who has a comb over. She has a lot of longer strands of hair covering up the balding spots.

And yet, she has never looked more beautiful. She has been happier and more playful over the last few days than we have seen her in a long time. It has been such an amazing blessing just to be with her and enjoy her.

She is also getting closer and closer to walking. However, she has discovered that falling straight forward and hoping that we will catch her is much more exciting than walking. She looks at us, laughs and falls forward into our arms. Sometimes she even decides to fall backwards or sideways. She just likes falling and letting us catch her.

Watching my little girl, I learned a valuable lesson about faith. She stands on her own, looks around and then falls over in some random direction. She doesn't look around to make sure we will catch her. She just knows that when she falls, mommy and daddy are going to be there. She trusts in that so intuitively that the falls not only do not scare her, she enjoys them. They make her giggle and she frantically asks for more.

That is the trust God is teaching our family. It is not about answers for us. We do not know God's plan, but we know God. And when we fall, He is there. In these days while we wait for her last round, while we wait for those scans that come in June, while we wait to hear whether or not she has been cured, all we can do is believe in an almighty, good God and trust that He is going through this with us. Jesus called it faith like a child. I have seen that faith. I want that faith. It is what will sustain us.

When we began this journey, Erin got a picture storage box about the size of a large shoebox. We wanted to save the cards that people sent to Keira so that one day we could show her how much she is loved and how many people care about her. Our shoebox is overflowing and we have a pile next to it, almost the size of another box. We are so grateful to all of you for supporting and encouraging us. It seems like at least a couple times a week, we are brought close to tears by the thoughtfulness and generosity of someone or some group of people. We know we are not alone, and we know we cannot do this alone. There is no way for us to be able to adequately thank each of you, but please know that we are so grateful and draw tremendous strength from your help and encouragement.

Please continue to pray for Keira, especially for her red blood count, which is very low right now making her extra tired and if it drops too much lower, she may have to have a blood transfusion. So, please pray for her.

And this is what I hold onto as I pray: "Now to him who by the power that is working within us is able to do far beyond all that we ask or think, to him be the glory in the church and in Christ Jesus to all generations, forever and ever."

May God bless you. Thank you

Jason, Erin & Keira